How Am I Feeling?
This is gonna be a bit of a ramble.
There is loads of stuff on my mind and I figured I could just try out something new in a sort of stream-of-consciousness sort of way. Not what I usually do but it's a new year after all!
Where do I even start? I am about two and a half weeks into my ADHD medication and it's been wild! From headaches to unrest, giddiness sleeping issues, energy bouts to lack of appetite, weight loss (and subsequent gain after changing things up) there have been lots of unusual happenings with my body and I'm still trying to figure things out. It is nice to not constantly feel exhausted, though, I'll say that much.
I've also been tested for ASD and am waiting for the results but that will take a couple of months, probably.
I have also been on a Batman: Arkham video game marathon. I've replayed Asylum, City and Knight but lost steam a couple of hours into Origins. It just doesn't hold up as well directly compared to the others, especially visually. It didn't used to bother me much but I've noticed that my feelings about several pieces of media have changed since last consuming them. Maybe I'm just getting old. Yes, I know, lots of you people are older than me. Originally, I meant to write a review of Arkham City because it was my favorite of the series but Knight has sort of grown on me since. Also, listening to "Into the Aether" (a low-key video game podcast) has stimulated me to go deeper into the games I am familiar with and, as a result, I now have pages of notes for a full-blown essay on the whole series, meta-analysis and all. I'm not sure if I'll ever get around to actually writing it because that'll be a chonker of a post but, hey, it's my website, I can do whatever the hell I want, thank you very much!
It's been quite cold where I live, at least compared to the usual average temparatures around here and for the first time in many years, there has been a lot of snow. We had lots of fun sledding (is that an actual word?) with the kids and building a snowman although I have the feeling that my tailbone took a hit a few times too many during the whole experience. Sitting in the wrong position hurts now but I think it's getting better.
It's beautiful outside, we moved last April and now live in the kind of place other people go for Sunday's bike trips, preferably a racing bicycle. Not kidding, these people are everywhere. I've found a new favorite spot near our house. It's a short way on foot, between two fields leading down to the river in a very secluded-feeling spot, although it's not, really. And depending on the weather, time of day, tidal level, temperature and my general mood, the experience can be totally different. I'm not much of a photographer but I've taken more landscape pictures in the past couple of months than the previous five years, easily. Right now, it's subzero temperatures outside and the tide is falling and there's a sheet of ice on the shore that covers stone, grass and sand. And if you just stand there quietly, you can hear it crackling and cracking because the water is flowing out from under the ice, causing it to break. It's magical. Here is a little picture:
I love it so much, I even briefly considered getting a stand or tripod for my phone to make nicer pictures and do shenanigans like long exposure shots and whatnot. I probably won't do it but the fact that I even considered it is already saying a lot, I think.
So how am I feeling? Most of the time I don't even know, I kind of play it by ear. Right now, I'm surprisingly well, I'd say, which may or may not be connected to the fact that I barely slept last night.
Have a good day and rest of your life (boy, that escalated quickly!) and be excellent to each other and, just as importantly, to yourself!